I went out with my cousin sis last week and we actually talked about this. A relationship start of with stranger. Knowing something that you have no idea who that person is. All is depends on the feeling whether you want to be friend with them or not. If lucky, he or she might become your friend.
I used to be this kind of person. When I've decide to friend with you, I'll pour in all my heart as though you're my lover. And this is the very reason why I got hurt so many times in my life. So the stages has changes. Life becomes difficult to makes friends since the "trust" has lost.
But how about those that you still called as friend. For me, I'm selfish person. At least I think I used to be. I always think that friends should treat me back the way how I treat them. But life reality makes me realize that this will never ever going to happen in our life.
Slowly, I've lost faith. And that is something that I think it's really terrible. It was weird to think back how much I used to love them but now, I just don't care about their action anymore. When the feeling of betray has fade. you know it's the time where you don't care about them anymore.
I felt a lot of these recently because I'm so tired of being the one who pour out all the love and friendship. I felt so hurt whenever there is disappoinment. So I guess the best way to protect myself is not to give out anymore. What commoners say it's true, it's not that quantity that counts, it's the quality that says.
I'm not asking for more in my life ever since so many dissapoinment happens. So all I can do now it go on with my own life and think more for myself than anyone else in this world. Because I'm the only one who can love myself more than anyone in this world. ^^